Ugh Chicago?!

So I moved to Chicago, 11 days ago and I'm now starting to freak out! I left friends, family and a boyfriend (ex?). I didn't make this decision in haste, I took my time and planned out where I would live. I just don't think I took into account how I would navigate this transition. I know I didn't pack properly so why would I think I did everything correctly? No I do not currently have a job and I know that is part of the problem I'm having, there's nothing to keep my mind active, to keep my mind from wondering into what's going on in NYC. I thought I wanted to have a fresh start, be the person I've always wanted to be, but now that I'm here, I'm feeling the opposite. I'm feeling like I am who I am when im connected to other people, who know my story. People who know where I come from and where I'm trying to go! It was my mistake to thing I needed to leave to find who I am and what I'm made of. I know I can move clear across the country if I thought that was the change I needed to make in my life. I am NOT scared of moving, leaving, evolving. I do not need to create situations to see how I will be able to handle them. However moving to Chicago has made me realize that I may have in fact done just that. -Tiffany